I feel as though my inner self is occupied by many "things I already know". When we try to think, we try to construct our thoughts using these "things I already know" as components, and in that case, we feel that a clear logic will not emerge unless the identity of the components is certain (especially if we want a clear conclusion). For this reason, we always prioritize storing "things I already know" inside so that they can be used at any time. If there is something unknown to me, it is categorized as "unknown things" so that its origin is guaranteed, and our inner self is always filled with things that have a guaranteed identity. If we do not do this, the foundation of our own existence will become infinitely vague, and if we force ourselves to allow the existence of such "unknown things", it will lead to an uneasy situation that could even cause mental disorders.
Given this premise, it seems like "truly new and amazing things" have no place inside me, and I always feel like they come from outside. Because "truly new and amazing things" are essentially masses of "unknown things," it seems impossible for them to exist inside me. That's why "truly new and amazing things" always appear unexpectedly and suddenly from the outside, beyond my expectations. Once you experience an encounter with such an "unknown thing," the emotion you feel at the time is truly intense, and it's no wonder that you start longing for that to happen again.
If we can generally sense that the feeling of "comfort" is somehow a reproduction or reaffirmation of "things we already know," then we will come to understand that there is a huge distance between "comfort" and "something that is truly new and amazing," and perhaps only those who realize this are able to view "the unknown" favorably.
However, simply waiting to encounter something "really new and amazing" is too unpredictable, and if I still want to induce further encounters with something that comes from the outside and transcends my intentions, then it was inevitable that I would need an objective force that is not influenced by my intentions. For that to happen, a systematized approach that can only be expected to produce results would be optimal, and in my case, this became the methodology of " flow painting " (which includes continuous painting and combined painting). I have recently come to realize that the world of art is truly a provocative act of trying to comprehensively embody all of these phenomena.
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